Definitions for "ambivalent"
undecided as to whether or not to take a proposed course of action; having feelings both for and against the proposed action.
characterized by a mixture of opposite feelings or attitudes; "she felt ambivalent about his proposal"; "an ambivalent position on rent control"
contradictory emotional or psychological attitudes. (Compare with ambiguous.)
Keywords:  angelic
uncertain or unable to decide about what course to follow; "was ambivalent about having children"